7.16.2009

hum-dum-dee-dum




My friends are getting married.
My friends are getting married, and I'm still single.
My friends are getting married, and I'm still single. And I'm okay with that.
My friends are getting married, and I'm still single. And I'm okay with that. Really, I am.
My friends are getting married, and I'm still single. And I'm okay with that. Really, I am. Most of the time.

But sometimes, it can be hard.
But sometimes, it can be hard to see everyone else happy.
But sometimes, it can be hard to see everyone else happy with everyone else.
But sometimes, it can be hard to see everyone else happy with everyone else. And here I am.
But sometimes, it can be hard to see everyone else happy with everyone else. And here I am. Happy, but alone.

And I wonder why.
And I wonder why I am so independent.
And I wonder why I am so independent, and comfortable with myself.
And I wonder why I am so independent, and comfortable with myself. my-lonely-self.
And I wonder why I am so independent, and comfortable with myself. my-lonely-self. Instead of someone else.

Because I'm not.
Because I'm not that girl.
Because I'm not that girl you know.
Because I'm not that girl. you know, the one who's always a girlfriend.
Because I'm not that girl. you know, the one who's always a girlfriend. And never just, a girl.

I am just me.
I am just me, and I'm learning.
I am just me, and I'm learning. I'm learning about love.
I am just me, and I'm learning. I'm learning about love. And loving myself first.
I am just me, and I'm learning. I'm learning about love. And loving myself first. Because, for now, that is enough.

photo via deviantart

4 comments:

amanda and dave said...

no painting at wymount. but that is definitely on my list of things when we someday get a real house :)

and I will totally check him out. I think I know one song....is he "beautiful disaster"??

I like it. (your post)

Josh said...

Laura, I don't know how many times I can say this before I start to come off as having no imagination and repetitive: I think the world of you. You've become one of my closest friends. I wouldn't trade the world for that. Life can be difficult sometimes. Stay strong dear friend.

You ever wanna chat, you know where I am.

Love, Josh

Katya said...

beautiful post, as usual laura. :) i think you are one amazing girl.

brown eyed girl said...

Thanks. To all of you. :).